Thanksgiving

Today is thanksgiving, I should be in the shower right now but I'm sitting at the computer with a cup of delicious coffay.

I don't know what to wear today, Nobody really gets dressed up for thanksgiving but I never get to see anyone and I don't wanna be ugly. oh dear, I don't feel like showering......

Jamie got his car fully on the road yesterday, it has plates, keys, and he fixed a couple things that looked bad on it. Like the ceiling of the car was falling in so he glued the fabric back up. And some of the chrome on the car was pealing up so he put that back down. I'm really happy for him, now he can go where ever when ever he wants. Its good for me too because now he can drive me around.

I have to move again, I'm so tired of moving. But now that I've received residency I can work. And since I don't have a car or anything I have to go somewhere that is close enough for me to get to a bus or walk. I really loved it here where I am, this place reminds me of my grandmothers house. I guess I'll just suck this up, its only going to be for a few years of my life where I wont be comfortable. All this will lead up to my dream house and horse stable. obviously....

Mmm Coffay!! <3

UGHH

How do I delete a post? That stupid "Howdy" thing below, i accidently put a stupid white background on it and i hate it!!!!!! arg....


I don't really like any of the templates you can choose from....

Howdy

If you feel empty in a part of your life, think about it and figure out what it is. Its never too late to fix anything.

I started this workout called Insanity. It's really hard, I love it. It gives you like a calendar to follow for 60 days and even things you should be eating. So I'm going to follow it, but I did it for one day, the day after I was so sore, but I did it again thinking maybe it could loosen up my muscles or something. Well it got worse, and this is day 3 and I still sore. Its all pure cardio, I really wanna be a sexy bitch for at least a year of my life. :) I'm so excited!!

I love music, I wish my computer would allow me to get itunes or something. My computer is so slow, and old. So anytime I ask it to do anything it sounds like in the computer box its making all theses grinding sounds and all these noises. And Its always telling me I don't have memory, anytime I go to look at pictures on the internet, it tells me that I'm now allowed to view the photos because of lack of memory.

I love being 19!! I cannot wait until I'm just a bit older and I can have money and actually do things and get things I want!! I'll be in my glory! I'm going to buy stuff and not feel guilty, I'll buy myself a new shirt that I love and not think "well what happens if i need this money for something else? I have clothes, who cares if they are all hand me downs? I can still wear them.." and pass up this shirt or pair of shoes or hand bag that I love and cant get off my mind. I cannot wait until I can start school! And be 100% independent and only need myself to do anything. Being 19, I'm almost there! ...... whoa, I just thought about myself in the future.... and its scarey.... I'll be different... I  wont be like how I am now, I'll go through more things and learn more and my views might be different, I might be some weird lady... nahhhhhhh!!!! I'll always be crazy, in a good way. I have not really changed my energy level in years, I'm still me! Well, if anything im more crazy, and happy. and care free! So the older I get, is actually making me younger. :)

I love to talk, I wish I had someone on MSN to talk to right now, so I wouldn't have to come on my blog and talk, nobody really reads this anyhow. Like, three people that already know all of this... Hi Melinda! Hi Brooke! Hi Dylan!! :)

Wake up call

I have a friend that has been having an extremely hard time with herself and understanding life. She usually doesnt listen to me but I talked to her today and she got it, I thought that what I told her would benefit others too.

I explained to her that life is like a big long test, and when things start going wrong they are like exams, and if you fail them you have to retake them over and over until you learn it and pass the test. Then you move on to a new test. That is what makes you stronger and wiser, lesson after lesson you prove yourself.

She has done a lot of things that were not right and it has her looking bad to others. So I explained to her that life is long. That she cannot clean up a mess as fast as she made it. I told her over time if she starts to pick up all the pieces and put them where they belong and were she likes them, that people see that and what she did in the past fades. That people will see shes picking up her life and that is what matters, the present.

You need to make sure you take care of yourself, and do things that is going to make you happy. Because when you're happy you can make many others happy. Stop doing things that make you feel wrongful becuase somebody else wants that. Its your life and as long as you learn from things and move on, that is what matters. And the people that cause the drama, will hopefully learn to do the same. If not, that isn't your fault, some people see things differently. You are not that person, so you cannot change who they are... Be understanding and see the full picture, always say the truth.

My new balls.

Well after being told many times that I am too nice and I should grow some balls and not let people walk on me... It's finally happened.

I've used them a few times in the past couple of days, I was always worried that if I stood up for myself or said something to someone who needed to hear it, I would feel wrongful and mean. But, I used them and nothing like that happened to me at all. They people I had words with ended up thanking me, telling me they are extremely happy to have me as a friend, and that I am a perfect person and to never change. They said even though it seems like I have been trying to help them, that I have. They said they really appreciate the things I do and how I am straight forward with no lies. It was a very scary thing for me to do, when I said the things they needed to hear I was shaking and my heart was pounding. But it came with a good cause.

I know that I am a great friend, I know I try very hard for others, to help them and do favours for. But that is more the reason I should have some balls, because the nicer you are the more people will use you. And someone that tries as hard as I do to please others, shouldn't be walked on.

Thank you for my new balls. I believe that Jamie has planted the seed for them, and with the encouragement from the lady Lynne I live with. They have grown to be quiet large.